*Our first trip to Newfoundland/on a plane together*

So we went to Newfoundland Monday morning for a 2 night 3 day visits with Abel's other grandparents the Dales. It was super crazy and stressful just even getting ready that morning. We arrived at the airport and proceeded to go through security where it was the biggest hassle of life, hold baby and then continue to undo stroller fold it up place on conveyor belt then place car seat bottom and then car seat also laptop out of laptop bag then diaper bag etc...with no help just to say. As airport security stated we cannot help you. !!! ugh I was going to lose my mind!

Ok so I get everything on the belt , they destroyed my very neatly and tightly packed diaper bag looking through it, as it seems to be very suspicious to have baby milk and medicine when you have a 6 mth old child! NOT! PEOPLE!

We finally got through security got on the plane and started our trip Abel drank his bottle and passed out as we took off so his ears didn't bother him, he slept for the first 30 minutes of the plane ride then woke up to the strange sounds and goings on as you have on every plane ride carts moving drinks opening etc. He then got up and watched toopy and binoo on the TV in the big boy seat he got to sit in as nobody booked the seat in the middle! :) He was perfect. Abel got a few frights with the turbulence and crawled up my neck to be close to me and on the landing into Newfoundland but he did awesome!

We spent the rest of the day with Nanny dale and had many many visitors, it was crazy and kind of an overload but hey what do you expect when you bring home an adorable new addition to any family. It was good to see everybody but we were exhausted... well over exhausted at this point.. the night to come was less then good. Abel finally fell asleep at 11:00 and then woke up every hour on the hour upset uncomfortable unhappy and very mommy needy, Until about 3 am when he decided he was going to be up for the day. :( finally go thim back to sleep at 5:30 am till 7 am he was up ad ready to have breakfast! :)

We spent that day in the park Bowring park to be exact we walked we ate ice cream ad we fed the duckies it was a beautiful day :) so much fun!!!!

We didnt have as many visitors that night so it was more of a day spent on Abels schedule, then Uncle Luke came to have supper with us and we went to visit Great Nanny Greenslade together :) it was awesome.

That night Abel slept so much better from 10:30 until 6:30 am the next morning only waking up long enough to check to make sure I was there and move closer to me in the bed. Sadly it was our last and final day in Newfoundland. We told everyone to visit between 9-12 as at 12 Uncle Luke was coming to get me and Robert and go to best buy. Sammy and Paige and Little J came to visit with us I was so happy to see them.  We then went to grab some pronto pizza slices for lunch UMMM YUMMMMY!!!! I hopped over to west side for a quick hello and drink ;) visited with my cousin and his son and girlfriend for a few moments then headed back to the house to finish packing and get ready for the airport. It was sad saying goodbye but I was missing Josh as Abel was missing his daddy, and we both I think missed our own beds. It was a great trip though and we will be doing it again next year!! :) for weddings! 

The flight home was great aside form the fact my ears wont stop popping lol. 

I hope if you ever do decide to travel with your infant do it in a calm peace of mind travel with as much as you need not more then you need and also bring tylenol and nose spray as the plane ride can dry up there little noses.  Also remember t is all about your child keep to their schedule as much as you can, it can be a very traumatic experience and overwhelming for them.

*Laziii Sundays*

Oh Sundays, How when I was a child you were lazy do nothing read a book & eat chocolate chip cookie dough yummy <3 while mom cleaned the house and cooked Sunday dinner....




Well not anymore now it is me cleaning and making milk and doing laundry and working a full 8 hr shift to boot. Also this Sunday is an exception as I am packing up for Abel and me to head on our very first big adventure on an airplane to Newfoundland.!


So in the back of my mind I am going List, do I have all of his clothes, Do I have enough diapers, wipes, hats, etc.etc.etc. Crazy mommy me coming out who can never have enough.


I am hoping that this will be a successful trip as I have read everything there is to read on flying with an infant, what to do during take off and landing, how to sooth, what to take what is and isn't allowed through security! Word to the wise maybe try and avoid travelling with infants until they are able to walk and carry their own bags and items and when you don't have to travel with half of your house! Josh said we are going to avoid this again as long as we can! ahah Next July! good friends of our wedding Ashley Barnes and Steve Burry  <3 and also and old friend of mine from school Krista and Micheal's wedding the week before <3 Oh the festivities!


Anyways a little sidetracked there, I am thinking I need to do so much to get ready for this very simple 3 day trip, when really it is all probably in my head and will go off without a hitch.Hey you never know right! 



I am working inbound today again, it is super slow and so is the Que, I am getting things accomplished though so it is not so much a bad thing. I am starved and I found pop shoppe pop for .99 cents per bottle last night at zellers :) yummy one of my weaknesses during my pregnancy. Picture to left for anyone who doesn't know what that it.
 *What were your weaknesses?

I am about to start doing everything at home like my gel nails that make me feel like a women again that i pay $60 for at a nail salon, my own waxing that costs $40 by the time your done or more, Facial treatments and others homemade (picture to right), trying to do cost effective ways to help make me happy for myself instead of spending money everywhere. youtube! youtube everything google everything learn! it helps save big big money. E-BAY is one of the best and cheapest ways to get the things you need to do it yourself!












I also purchased moom an organic waxing kit for at home. http://www.moom.com/


I will add links to most websites for products i use and like after I have tried them :)
Everything I have purchased in total has been $100.00 maybe and I will be saving way more money then going to get it done by someone else.


Let me know if you know other do it yourself ideas for anything not just beauty but painting children rooms, photos, anything at all that will make bank accounts stretch for new moms on a budget.

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Thirsty Thursday has a whole new meaning*

It is hot hot hot here this day and yesterday and everyday lately, Abel has been in just his diaper for the past 2 weeks trying to keep cool. (we both ate ice cream well Popsicle type things with his fruit i make for him but he doesn't know it is a treat ;)..In case you are wondering I just put a teaspoon and 1/2 in homemade Popsicle thingy and freeze them for when he needs a treat or something different for a snack.)


I work for the next 4 days then we are headed to Newfoundland for a short but sweet visit. I have a feeling I am going to be very very tired. I am excited as many people who have not yet gotten to meet our little delight will get to see his awesomeness.


I found this amazing thing online the other day and I cannot wait to do it with Abel when he is old enough.

I thought it was pretty neat. When you become a mom you seem to think of more interesting and creative ways to do everything, whether it be putting food for your baby away in a way nobody else can but you understand it, or thinking of activities you can do together, or their closets how you pair clothes what to hand what to store in a drawer. Its like you inherit this sort of creepy spidey sense and organization and creativity that you never knew you had. Also you find things like homemade finger paints awesome, and blog about them at 12:30 at night when work is super slow.

I will be posting up a lot of new ideas I find as I want to share them with you all. 

So instead of Thirsty Thursday meaning I go to a bar and get hammered on cheap drinks and shots, my thirsty Thursdays are way better now as when Abel and I are Thirsty we eat our Popsicle drink our juice and water and play in the pool :) 

I hope everyone is enjoying their week, :) It's almost Friday ! x0x0

Just a quickie update...

Abels is sound asleep taking his mid day nap upstairs so a quick update for everyone wondering Josh and I yes we worked it out because that is of course what you do when you love each other, Rough patches they suck and they hurt and they make you wonder everything but that is why they are called rough patches. I am going to seek some new mommy groups out and maybe a person outside of my daily life to speak to as sometimes you just need to get other thoughts out and don't know how around the ones you love.


Day by day I will figure it out just like every new mom has to the how too's on juggling motherhood a job and a relationship.!Nothing is ever easy but me and Josh can accept that, as we go through each and every up and down in our new life together, but we love each other and have for a very long time so we will do anything to make it work. We know the only reason why either one of us would ever leave and we both know it will never happen. That is all that matters. 


I love my life there is nothing and nobody that can take that away from me. No matter how much I complain or just feel like the day to day is hard and exhausting it is life and you go to bed and redo it all over again :)


I hope all you new parents understand it will never get easier just harder, but it will be the best joyride of your life also the hardest but figure it out and do whatever you can to make it work for that  new baby of yours.All you new daddy's out there please be supportive new mommy cant handle everything she doesn't know everything and she does need help even though she wont ask for it just support her :) 


So just to let you know I am spending this amazing beautiful day with my handsome little boy who is now waking up we are going for a walk and enjoying the air and sunshineys! :) I hope everyone has a wonderful Wednesday and I will write again as soon as I get a chance. :)


p.s. Love you Joshy ;) x0-

..I just don't know...

So it has been a horrible start to the day I have been up all night, I honestly think in the years people have spent fighting me and hurting me I have turned into a person who can fight and hurt back. I cant seem to find a way to handle negative anything anymore, I am a mother and I find myself so overcome with every emotion lately. Unable to control tears, anger, happiness. I feel alone like I have lost all of my friends, not that I had many to begin with I could list on one hand who is truly a friend.. that's sad to say. I feel alone in most things now. 


I am unsure of where this day will end up, right now with me sitting here typing angrily onto the screen telling you bits and pieces of what has got me so worked up this morning, drinking a red bull as I may crash hard soon and Abel upstairs having his morning nap. Josh well gone. I find it very hard to speak to anybody I am fighting with as they just make me more and more angry and I just want to yell scream and throw things to make it stop! 


I have learned that being a mother does make you stronger but sometimes you just need to crack, you will need to cry and sometimes you don't even know why, and when you do know why, that is the scariest thing in the world. I suffered from depression for a long time and thought that I had overcome it with this great guy coming into my life and having our wonderful little miracle, but sometimes that disease never leaves apparently, it just sits in the back of your mind making you feel like it can bring your whole world to a halt at any time. I wont say anything right now as I do not know where me and Abel will end up through everything that has happened in the last 24 hrs, I do know however we will figure it out, I trusted and maybe yet again have lost, I love with my whole heart but still he cant see through my anger right now to know that. I don't know how else to say I am sorry when those words don't seem fitting anytime since I have spent my whole teenage adult hood saying those words for them to mean nothing and for it to be said when I done nothing wrong, so when I do yes I find it hard to say. I can admit I am in the wrong in my emotions but I cant say its all my fault. 


I am crying out for help some sanity, I need him to just stay but threats of leaving moving, they don't make it better they make me want to say FINE JUST GO!!!!!! IF THAT'S WHAT YOU WANT JUST GO!!! neither one of wants that, I know this, but two stubborn idiots and this is what you get a split of ways, this is what life is, the question is do we accept it and let everything we have worked hard to overcome to get here today just let it go? or do we make it work again and again and again fight after stupid fight, makeup and realize we have an amazing life? The pressures of growing up , becoming new parents, financial stress, houses, weddings, cars , trips life life life it is not easy and it is bound to bring you down somehow.


I definetley today do not know where our story will for later this evening when I write again, I want to say I hope it will end back up to where I delete this post in all of my anger and we live happily ever after..but this is life not a fairy tale not happily ever after 24/7 just life, ups downs and well sadness.


People take everything for granted, we don't understand how amazing and spectacular something is until it is gone, I LOVE him I do but if I cant make him happy and he feels the need to leave, I cant stop him, but I can secretly wish that he comes home to his family where he belongs. 


p.s. I'll always love you , but I am a big idiotic mess with nowhere to go to figure it out except learn day by day. baggage it does suck.  


----------------Sincerely Yours stubborn little princess
                (new mama)
                (a past that will destroy a future if we let it)
                (your best friend for 12 years)
                (a failure in life most days)
                (a person who cant see any good in herself)...


Please forgive me one day, I don't know how else to apologize. 


If you are a new parents and you are trying to make things work and you just don't know how, i believe that is ok sometimes, as you cant have perfect all the time, You will figure it out if you truly want to anger hurt crying screaming laughing so uncontrollably hard you cant stop and then tears run down your face that is life, all different ways of handling life's situations. Just let it out I am right now, and it seems to be helping. Not saying I am not scared to death right now because I am and you will feel that way but everything happens for a reason!.

So it has been a few months... May 06, 2012 we celebrated Joshs 24th birthday we got him lots of prizes!  We have had several visitors since the christening,my little sister and her boyfriend, my aunt & uncle from newfoundland. And their daughter krista. The biggest news and change for all of us here since May has been I got a new part time job.!.!


Yes a job, it's hard becoming a new mom, bills, baby food, diapers, wipes, milk, you name it $100.00 here there everywhere. It was scary I haven't been off this long from work since before I was old enough to work...no income coming in but abels childtax and universal child credit, which isn't enough to get everything you need for that beautiful baby and pay bills and savings. It's so hard to budget after you get everything you need for him for the month and put away some for his savings. So I decided to pick up a part time job, I now work for MarketLinc!  Lifesavers is my biggest word. For this company, I got my first interview and I was so nervous. Not many company's want to hire a new mom with a very strict schedule!  I didn't even want to mention it and just try and get by. Well it ended up coming out in that very first interview when I was asked what I felt about hours and weekends and night shifts etc. They explained we will work as best as we can with you around you and your child! Awesome was all that came to my mind


So on and so forth I received the second interview!!:) and yes GOT THE JOB!! I started work on the 13th of June 2012! Working 2 night shifts until 1 am and both Saturday and Sunday 8 hr shifts but working from home, where I can still be with my family on my breaks! :) 


I know I am lucky to have a family that supports me being a full time mom and taking on a part time job. They watch Abel for me while I work,  I understand that not everybody can be as lucky to have help with child-care to work and get that little bit of extra income but if you can even do it for two or three nights week while bb is sleeping the money is an amazing help to relieve financial worries. It may not be a lot of money but it's something to help save for abels future.  


It is exhausting yes but honestly worth it! I have realized every time my 4 shifts are over how much I would do absolutely anything for my baby boy even if it means working and getting no sleep because he wakes up with hunger belly pains or just needs mama cuddles cause he missed me from not putting him to bed or just because, and spending everyday after working till that early morning hr playing and going for walks to the park making supper and doing it all over again! I would do it no matter what it took out of me as long as I know Abel will be ok.  So new moms out there yeah life's hard but since you have brought that little person into the world you are finally finding out how strong you can be! ! You got this!  




Here's their website for anyone looking for a work from home position...
www.marketlinc.ca


Goodluck!!!

Babyboy and I*